I lost my virginity two months ago, And I still have not decided how I feel about it.

There is this guy I really liked, all the girls do. We were not even really girlfriend/boyfriend. But I kept thinking if I could just keep him interested he will be my boyfriend. Now I realize the he is nothing but a player.

See we had been hanging out together for about a week, we kissed and petted A LOT. I let him finger me and I gave him blow jobs cause he begged me to. we had lots of fun doin stuff to eachother. Experimenting with our bodies. but then one day he came over to my house when my parents and sister were out. we were doing all the same stuff, we were kissing a lot and touching eachother all over. Then all of a sudden he stops kissing me and is looking at me really strange, intense kind of. He says "Do you know what I want to do?" the look in his eyes said "Sex" So I nodded and said, "You want to have sex." he nodded. I was scared and I think he could tell. I even said "I'm scared to have sex." he told me "You like me don't you?" I said I did and he said "Then just let me stick it in you, if it hurts, I'll stop." I was still scared and said so. he said "alright and we just kept kissing and touching eachother. Eventually we were nearly naked cause we had been exploring our bodies again. He kissed me between the legs and it felt really good. He told me I was really wet and that if he stuck his penis in me it wouldn't hurt at all. I was thinking that he was willing to wait.

Now he kept on, begging me. promising me over and over again that we could stop anytime I wanted. His penis was erect and sticking up and he said that it was starting to hurt. I told him I would blow job him. He said that a blow job wouldn't make it stop. That it would only fix it if I let him stick it in me that his brother had told him stuff like this happens.

So I laid back and told him only if he PROMISED to stop if it hurt. He said ok so I let him put it in me and it hurt SO bad. At first I didn't say anything because other girls have said that you get used to it. He could see that I was hurting, He pulled it out and then put it back in. I told him to please stop because it hurt. but then he started moving in and out really hard, he didn't stop he just kept on going in and out really hard and fast. I tried to push him off but he pushed my arms down. I don't know how lond we did it, but it hurt the whole entire time, I was crying and telling him it hurt but he wouldn't stop like he promised he would. I think he even told his friends and some of the girls because hte look at me and laugh

AVERT.org: Pain in the testicles - known as "blue balls" - can sometimes result from prolonged sexual arousal, especially among teenagers. It can be relieved through orgasm (not necessarily during sex), or possibly by applying ice or cold water to the scrotum. In any case the discomfort will usually go away within an hour or so. Blue balls is certainly not an excuse for having non-consensual sex. According to her description, what happened to Jackie-Lyn was rape. She is now receiving couselling.